For the past few weeks I’ve been feeling pretty…. blah. You know, some of those days where you just feel sortof insecure and that no body really gets you. You just feel upset and get really tell why. Well today, for the first time in a while I was so happy haha. I must stress this to the minimal people who will every read this, I love life. So when I was upset for the past few weeks, it sortof threw me. I mean, I had the chance to meet one of my favorite bands, also see a performer who is so inspirational and has the most profound lyrics and yet, that still didn’t really fulfill me. I know, I sound selfish and I should shut up, I agree. Normally I wouldn’t even bother writing about this but I thought what I noticed today deserved some attention. I love myself, I’m not normally a self consious person. I believe so much in myself people tell me I should be more humble. The fact is, I’m a really good, awesome person, haha. (See I’m being humble!) So when I met We The Kings I was so excited! Excited beyond belief actually, but that didn’t really transend through me I guess because once that night was over, I was back to “blah”. Of course, why bring other people down with me when I know this blahness will fade? So I didn’t mention to my friends and I’m a much better actress than most people give me credit for so no one really noticed. I sound depressed, jeez sorry! So I never got the advice from a close friend like I should have. But then I was listening to The Cab and Alex DeLeons words sortof, I don’t know. Hit the right spot I guess because once I started to really listen to his lyrics I thought to myself, “Jeez, Kiley! You have this amazing life. You’re friends are beautiful people, your family loves you. You’re an insanley good person and a great friend (I know, me being humble again =]) You deserve to be happy so I decided to screw my bad mood. I love life and if that means I have to deal with these crappy moods and just forget about them like I am now, then so be it!
Love me, I dare you!
-Kiley
p.s. - Smile my beautifuls and take in the wonders around you. This moment is unique, it’s never going to happen again so make it worth something. Do something crazy, say something stupid, dance, sing even if you suck like me, embarass yourself because these are the days that really count, the ones that challenge us and make us better people.
