For the past few weeks I’ve been feeling pretty…. blah. You know, some of those days where you just feel sortof insecure and that no body really gets you. You just feel upset and get really tell why. Well today, for the first time in a while I was so happy haha. I must stress this to the minimal people who will every read this, I love life. So when I was upset for the past few weeks, it sortof threw me. I mean, I had the chance to meet one of my favorite bands, also see a performer who is so inspirational and has the most profound lyrics and yet, that still didn’t really fulfill me. I know, I sound selfish and I should shut up, I agree. Normally I wouldn’t even bother writing about this but I thought what I noticed today deserved some attention. I love myself, I’m not normally a self consious person. I believe so much in myself people tell me I should be more humble. The fact is, I’m a really good, awesome person, haha. (See I’m being humble!) So when I met We The Kings I was so excited! Excited beyond belief actually, but that didn’t really transend through me I guess because once that night was over, I was back to “blah”. Of course, why bring other people down with me when I know this blahness will fade? So I didn’t mention to my friends and I’m a much better actress than most people give me credit for so no one really noticed. I sound depressed, jeez sorry! So I never got the advice from a close friend like I should have. But then I was listening to The Cab and Alex DeLeons words sortof, I don’t know. Hit the right spot I guess because once I started to really listen to his lyrics I thought to myself, “Jeez, Kiley! You have this amazing life. You’re friends are beautiful people, your family loves you. You’re an insanley good person and a great friend (I know, me being humble again =]) You deserve to be happy so I decided to screw my bad mood. I love life and if that means I have to deal with these crappy moods and just forget about them like I am now, then so be it!
Love me, I dare you!
-Kiley
p.s. - Smile my beautifuls and take in the wonders around you. This moment is unique, it’s never going to happen again so make it worth something. Do something crazy, say something stupid, dance, sing even if you suck like me, embarass yourself because these are the days that really count, the ones that challenge us and make us better people.
To be or not to be
Hey world, this is my first post. I hope people read this =]
I feel like for the most part I am a very relaxed person and I like taking risks in life so I started this blog and for now I’m just going to tell you about myself, this may be a long post so brace your selves my friends =]
First off, my name is Kiley, it’s a pleasure to meet you! I’m 16 and have a twin brother and 4 other siblings besides him. I’m the middle of 6 kids and have 2 step siblings. I don’t mind school, I love having intellectual conversations, so try me. I have a lot of different types of friends and I love it. I learn different cultures and find out more about myself from these people than I would have imagined. I don’t have a single best friend. That one who understands me completely, but I guess that’s because I still don’t understand myself completely. I’m corky, unique, completely unoriginal too. I’m loud, quiet, social, friendly and mean when you cross my friends and family. I go with the flow and usually don’t let anything bother me because why live life anything other than happy? You’re just wasting the short amount of time you have on this beautiful earth if you spend your time here unhappy. I believe in karma and that if your a good person, good things will happen. Now I also believe in hard work. If you put every ounce of your heart and soul into something, I beleive your dreams will come true. I’m utterly confused about life and the truth is, I like it. If you know what’s gonna happen then what’s the fun in that? I think reading is sexy and I’ve read over 700 books in the past 2 or 3 years. I have no idea what I want to be when I’m older and I’m not concerned about it. I hope to do something worth while with my life, whether it be teaching English, which was a goal of mine for a while or something else, like being in the music business. I interview bands as an internship and I have been blessed because I get to hang out with my favorite bands and get to know the real them, not the stage performers. I’m straight-edge, but I don’t care if you drink or smoke. It’s your life, I’ve already learned from my mistakes and moved on, but I can’t and would never make you. I don’t regret anything in life because everything I’ve done has lead me to this moment where I’m writing a blog (I bet you all wish I regretted some things so you could stop reading =]) I must admit there are some things I am not proud of but I have learned, matured and moved on. I think that’s it for now and to quote a huge inspiration right now in my life, Alex DeLeon of The Cab, who is by far one of the most exceptional song writers of all time and one of the most insightful people I’ve had the pleasure to be acquainted with.
Love me. I dare you.
-Kiley (I’m beggin you! Smile! Life is beautiful.)
